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is just 2 hrs away. It’s scary. I hate that we have to go through this. I have no idea what to expect. According to some places we are just on target with numbers and times. Feeling inside my body is that nothing has changed and that I have not a symptom to be accounted for and that scares me too.

Wish us luck, apt is at 9:45.. let’s see, fingers crossing.. thinking the worst, hoping for the best!


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Going insane..

Seriously, I spend most days just reading and searching the net. Work is over, and I leave for a big trip next week, and big man is working and I just have my thoughts. Me and my damn thoughts, and messages boards that aren’t helping talking about blighted ovums etc..

I just want to know NOW, NOW NOW damn it, if there is anything? This is so frustrating. I don’t sleep well, i am up like 4 times a night with the cats or the birds outside or whatever. I don’t feel at rest or  at peace at all and just have this number: 1713. I am convinced that it is now a blighted ovum.. that’s my diagnosis. Why cant’ this just be real??

Guideline to hCG levels during pregnancy:

hCG levels in weeks from LMP (gestational age)* :

  • 3 weeks LMP: 5 – 50 mIU/ml
  • 4 weeks LMP: 5 – 426 mIU/ml
  • 5 weeks LMP: 18 – 7,340 mIU/ml
  • 6 weeks LMP: 1,080 – 56,500 mIU/ml
  • 7 – 8 weeks LMP: 7,650 – 229,000 mIU/ml
  • 9 – 12 weeks LMP: 25,700 – 288,000 mIU/ml
  • 13 – 16 weeks LMP: 13,300 – 254,000 mIU/ml
  • 17 – 24 weeks LMP: 4,060 – 165,400 mIU/ml
  • 25 – 40 weeks LMP: 3,640 – 117,000 mIU/ml
  • Non-pregnant females: <5.0 mIU/ml
  • Postmenopausal: <9.5 mIU/ml

According to this chart I am 6 weeks from LMP and 1713 is higher than 1080, so that should be comforting right.. well, it’s not!! I hate this.. the not knowing..I wish I was stronger. I wish I could take the messages as support.. but the i’ve heard worse msgs don’t help me AT ALL! arg.. thanks for listening!

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She wasn’t positive, not negative.. she just said this is the number. It appears to double every 2.4 days. Our ultra sound will be next Wednesday, hopefully we will see something. Need lots of loving now.. please give it to me!! 🙂

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14dp2dt pics

Now what??test 4

test 5

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Great, now I read about this….. I think this is what it is.. shit!!

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pic #2

faint number 2

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So, this morn took that stupid swedish strip test, neg. Then this evening the real deal. Clear blue easy early prediction test. It was about 10 pm so not first morning, but there is clearly a faint faint, almost non existent line. I’m taking a pic for you, or big man will scan it, which ever we can get working first 🙂

Okay, so we’ve taken pics, but you hardly see a thing.. right?? help me out girls!!

Maybe it’s just wishful thinking.. maybe not?? What do you think?test 1 13dt2dt

We still have little to no hope, but let’s try tomorrow morning just in case.

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